welcome 2d world my dear twinnies...

2day is d day!!!pg td mommy as usual kena wt d CGR test...n 4d past 2days ni mmg doc de kt my 2nd twin nyer heart beat cm not so stabil..bunyi mcm jauh..risau mommy ble dgr cm2 kn..but ble doc wt susulan alhamdulillah ok semula but this morning doc de ckp brite yg xbrape best la..as d nurse wt CGR test this morning,my 2nd twin nyer heart beat cm ssh sgt nk dgr..makin jauh jer n xbrape active..d graph tunjuk yg d 2nd twin nyer heartbeat statik..
mommy trus jd panic n doc trus ckp yg "it's time 2bring out d babies..."what??now??like 2day doc??ha..cm2 la mommy nyer reaction..i'm happy cz finally mase yg mommy tunggu2 dh smpai..i'm gonna meet my twinnies 4d 1st time..yeay!!!hepy,takut,nervous plus mcm2 la feeling cmpur2 dlm hati mommy ni..doc trus suh mommy puasa n will do d operation around 3pm..lg 6jam jer..trus call abi n he seems shock gak..thn i called my ibu..explain 2her evrytin n knowing my mom,she start dh nanges..ibu mn yg xrisau kn..
start tu d news dh spread out..ramaila yg call n wish me luck..xlame abi pn smpai n temankn mommy..1st thing ble nmpk abi mommy peluk abi kuat2..cz mommy takut sgt ni..thn ktorg pn bc Surah Yassin same2..semntara tgh tunggu je ni utk di bawak ke operation theatre...doakn kami bertiga yer..
2my twinnies rayyan n rifqi,
jp lg kt akan jmper..mommy xsabar ni..kuat2 yer ank2 mommy!!
xoxo

waiting..

dh5days mommy admitted...n doc ckp d twins conditions r stable..so we still can wait n give them chance to grow n gain weight more...tp mommy plk yg boring..huhu dh la jauh ngn abi...ptg2 jer blh jmpe whn visiting hours...tu pn dptla dlm 1hour...tgk abi pn cm dh penat ulang alik hospital kn...but he always smile 2give mommy smangat..dlm hati dier mommy tau yg dier pn sgt risau 4 d three of us...mommy, rayyan n rifqi sayang abi tau...

we r admitted..

2day mommy kena admitted dkt hosp...byk tol bnda pg ni...kn sepatutnya mommy nk lapor diri 4my new job on 4th kn tp xsempat la plk...huhu..so pg2 ni mommy n abi p jmpe d person in-charge nk mohon utk tangguh utk lapor diri smpai mommy abis pntang nnt..but we dh discuss awal2..if he said xblh..kami redha..mknanya bukan rezki mommy nk keje kt c2 kn...
so pg tu b4 gerak ke hosp bsr..mak msk kn ikan tempoyak..cz dr last week mmg mommy teringin sgt nk mkn tempoyak but xsempat nk msk..so tht morning i mkn dl ns dgn ikan tempoyak..mmg favourit mommy tp mood n slera xde..cmne nk mkn ble risau kn..thn mommy n abi p hosp..smpai kt hosp bsr, they did d standard procedure..VE (Vaginal Examination)...tekejut sgt mommy tht time..xde warning tau..huhu..
lame mommy kt dlm bilik saringan tu..smpai abi pn call risau cz he has 2wait outside.thn they start wt CGR to check d babies heart beat..n according to thm their heartbeat r still stable..Alhamdulillah...
later thn,doc in-charge dtg..he explained dkt hospital sultanah aminah d ventilation machines r all occupied..he said tht mommy need 2b send to hospital sultan ismail cz dorg dh reserve kn d ventilation machine 4us there..so mommy kena naik ambulance..ha?biar btul...abi kena drive our car there plk..so mommy naik d ambulance wth one nurse..dier yg jg mommy along d way...laju gler..sepnjang pejalanan tu mommy baca mcm2 ayat n byk2 ngucap n istighfar...
whn we arrived at hospital sultan ismail n mommy turun jer frm ambulance..mommy nmpk abi dh tunggu...Alhamdulillah n dlm ati ckp laju nyer abi drive...huhu..after all d procedures..mommy kena p jmpe pakar dkt c2..his name is dr.Rajesh..a very nice doc..he did d doppler reading n he said d graf seems getting better..y not we give d babies chance to grow n gain weight more..but he said that they promise to observe mommy evry 4hours especially d part to hear their heartbeat..so mommy kena admitt ptg tu..trus nanges cz kt hosp gomen ni hubby xblh teman kt bilik...i hv 2be alone mlm2 nnt..tp 4 my babies xpela kn...ape pn mommy sanggup 4both u sayang...
so mommy's twinnies,
be strong ya...anak2 mommy mst kuat cm mommy kn!!
rayyan n rifqi..our heroes...

mommy n my preggy fwens...

erm..evryday abi la org yg paling setia visit mommy at d hospital..ye la hr2 biasa sume org pn keje..thn hosp sultan ismail ni pn cm jauh frm our place..wan n atok babah pn mommy ckp xyah la dtg cz wt masa ni mommy ok jer..cian plk dorg nk kena travel frm peejay all d way kn..so mommy ckp once mommy dh nk kena give birth nnt br wan n atok babah dtg kay..hikhik..
since mommy admitted dh ramai kwn mommy kt cni..de yg dok sehari,2hari n yg dok stakat few hours pn ade ble labour room dh full..hehe..mommy ingt i'm d only one ygkena dok cni lame2..rupenye de ramai la lg preggy mommy yg de complication..sian dorg..yg dh dok kt hosp sebulan pn ade..mommy nye room mate la 2..
hehe..her name is kak irma..carrying her 2nd baby..she de komplikasi kedudukan uri di bawah..people wth this kind of complication kena duk kt hosp cz any time blh jd bleeding n jd tumpah darah...seram jer dgr ek..alhamdulillah la mommy n my twinnies xde kena cm2..since dh a week ktorg dok same2 kt dh jd close la n dh jd senior kt ward tu..hehe..so when ever de org br kt c2 mst kami interview..hehe
so mommy pn xla rs sedey n bowink sgt ble dh de geng kn..lgpn geng mommy yg dlm pewot ni pn always teman mommy kn ;)..ha..lupe nk crite..since now ni upin ipin mmg tgh femes..mommy ni d gelar "mommy upin ipin kt cni..hehe..ble d nurse nk check baby nyer jntung jer mst dorg akan ckp.."so,upin n ipin..howwa u 2day?..betul,betul,betul..."
erm evryday d routine cm2 la..as early as 4a.m nurse akan dtg tuk wt check-up..like mommy yg carry "upin n ipin" ni ;) kena wt CGR evryday..cz doc kena observe their heart beat..time wt CGR tu mmg xslesa sgt.cz kena stay still jer,if not nnt d reading cm xbtl plk nnt..thn kul6.30 mommy mnd n solat subuh..thn 7.30 b1st dh smpai...mkn2 dh jd ngantok la plk..thn t'tdo la smbil tunggu doc pakar dtg wt check-up..after d chech-up normally mommy smbung tdo..kn mlm2 ssh nk dpt tdo kn..erm thn mkn lg 4lunch plk..kr nyer evryday mommy nyer routin is mkn n tdo je plus tgk tv...thn ptg abi dtg around 5.30pm..time tu la nk lps rindu n manje2...thn evrytime abi nk blk, sure la mommy nk nages..haish mommy...manjer ke ngade2 nih..hikhik...
cm2 la mommy spend most of d time d wad..mkn n tdo plus tv...boring but wht 2do kn..kena dok kt cni so tht doc blh observe my twinnies condition..n so far they r doing fine..
abg n adik...be strong ya dear...mommy n abi mmg xsbr nk jmper abg n adk but stay dl ya..mommy nk ank2 mommy kuat n gain more weight dl..ok..sa...yang...my twinnywinnies...xoxo

d day...

since last few weeks check-up were fine mommy n abi dh xrisau sgt bout our twinnies condition...but 2day pe yg mommy n abi worry all this while dh jd...according 2 d "doppler reading" yg doc buat, their size dh jauh beza semula..n frm d reading doc detect aliran darah utk d 2nd twin makin berkurang..he said "this is d time..,u have 2be admitted so we can observe u n ur babies..." my heart pump so fast..ya Allah, slamatkanlah kami bertiga..
thn doc explain it's better if kt kluarkn baby awal n observe dr luar, if baby still dkt dlm n if action lmbt lg mcm2 hal blh jd..so mommy n abi ckp kt doc just do wht's best 4 our babies..thn doc buatkn refer letter utk mommy admitted ke hospital bsr..he said d best is dkt hosp besar (hospital sultanah aminah) as facilities lengkap plus all d pakar yg de kt jhr ade kt c2..mommy n abi ikut jer...
blk umah abi explain to mak n ayah 'bout d babies condition..mommy pn trus call ibu n babah n explain to thm gak..insyaAllah with all d prayers from all our love ones...
ya Allah,slamatkanlah aku dan anak2 dlm kndungan ku ini..
lindungilah kami ya Allah...Amin...
to my twinnies..,
hang on buddies..xlama je lg kt akan jmpe ye rayyan n rifqi..
anak2 mommy kena kuat ya...mommy n abi sayang kamu!!!

niyaz al-rayyan...& niyaz al-rifqi...

last nite mommy mimipi..mmg la evdyday mimpi but this time mimpi ni lain sket...i had a dream sumone came to me n ask me to name my baby as niyaz al-rayyan...cm best jer kn..erm d dream was short je thn mommy trus bgn nk p shishi..huhu...
erm...patut ke mommy n abi ikut my dream tu yek..??feel like mmg nk ikut pn n mommy even dh dpt d name for our second twin yg cm kena dgn d name niyaz tu...hehe..niyaz al-rifqi..ha cmne?ok x..hehe actually name rifqi tu is nama one d ustaz yg bg ceramah kt masjid ni..mmg time preggy ni mommy suka tgk d ustaz..hehe..abi jgn marah ek...
but d names seems too long la plk kn..ermm..xpela..still got time to choose kn..but wht ever pn mommy nk d name rayyan n rifqi mst ade in my twinnies name..even now mommy pn dh slalu ckp2 wth d twinnies n panggil dorg wth d name rayyan n rifqi..mommy suka,suka,suka....

erm..now mommy trsgtla cpt rasa penat...maybe cz bawa 2babies kot..since mommy dh enter 8mnths ni rs cm xsabar nk jmpe my twinnies...theee..i just wonder how they look like?r they gonna hv a dimple n big eyes as i am or mata steam abi dorg yek?hehheh...
brg2 baby 4 this time being i think dh cukup..just yg bsr2 la mommy n abi rs later la pn blh..nk tunggu btl2 sale kot..huhu kena pndai shoppin 4d twins kn..hospital beg memang mommy n abi dh prepare since d time doc ckp we might bring out d baby early...sumtimes i feel like it's ok if d twinnies kluar awal as me n hubby mmg dh xsbr nk jmper our twinnies kn..but of coz we want our twinnies 2be really ready wth good weight n superb health condition kn..but ni semua ketentuan Allah..kt hanya blh merancang..Allah jua yg menentukan...
so td dh wt check-up n doc kt as for now xde yg perlu di risaukan...baby nye "doppler reading" pn ok..so mommy n abi feel so lega as d babies blh dok dlm pewot mommy lg..tmbah berat lg...tndang2 mommy lg...thee..mommy n abi sayang abg n adik kay...

Can I Nurse my Premature Baby?

This few days mommy did loads of reading n browsing d internet bout premie babies...n this is one of d article wth important topic n mommy rs mommy memang kena tau...

Many moms wonder if they can still breast-feed their premature baby. Yes you can but it isn't always a easy road. Your milk is perfect for your baby because colostrum and your breast milk have antibodies, white blood cells, and immune properties that will help in your baby resisting infection.

• You can introduce breastfeeding around 32 weeks or so, as long as your baby is doing well. Some countries encourage putting your baby to the breast earlier.
• As you can you should begin expressing breast milk, Use a good breast pump when you milk comes in.
• You want to try to express you milk at least 6 to 8 times daily.
• Emptying you breast completely every time.
• Always use clean and sterile containers to express you milk into. A majority of hospitals will provide the containers for you.
• Your baby may be too premature to use your milk just yet, it can be frozen to use later.
• Make sure to label the container with your name and the date; the oldest milk will be used first.
• Make sure you get plenty of rest and fluids, to increase your milk supply.
• Increasing the frequency of pumping can help increase your supply.
• Answers to your questions, advice and support can be gotten from the nurses and/or a lactation consultant.

Keep in mind that sometimes even with the best of intentions your breast milk supply may decrease if all you can do is pump and your baby is still too small to nurse. If you have only managed to express a small amount of colostrum and breast milk, it will help your baby more than you realize.

Copyright © Angelia Fenton.

weekly check-up...

since mommy pn dh nk msuk 30weeks preggy n condition baby dlm pewot, start last week dh kena wat weekly check-up..this week rs nervous sgt nk jmpe doc..but at d same time xsbr nk tgk perkembangan my 2heroes ni..Alahamdulillah..their weight different dh xjauh beza dh..but doc kt kena observe their condition every week..now doc dh start wt "doppler reading".doc ckp mommy kena wt ni coz nk tgk graf aliran darah both of them...n Alhamdulillah, d graf shows good sign..both them dpt darah n all d nutritions secukupnya...lega hati mommy...erm 2morrow mommy kena wt MGTT test again..doc kt langkah berjaga-jaga..if dh kena diabetis nnt lg la ssh kn...insyaAllah semua dengan izin-Nya akan dipermudahkn n berjalan lancar...Amin...

prime babies....

this few days mommy dh ok skt..xla cm masa mula2 doc bg tau condition my twinnies tu..mommy dh pk if asyik sedey pn xguna kn..dh la xbaik 4d babies kn..so this few days i did loads of browsing d internet bout prime baby..how 2take care of them n mcm2 lg la kn...as they r very fragile so we need 2be extra care wth them..
mcm2 i jmpe dlm internet..ader jer baby yg lahir 500gram n Alhamdulillah dorg blh survive n dh bsr pn..it's just that they have 2 spend a long time in d hospital..ble tgk all d picts n videos bout them terasa sayu sgt hati mommy..ye la kn..tgk baby yg comel2 dlm incubator n dh ader wayer2 berselirat kn..xsmpai hati betol..i just can imagine how myself in that situation..but i pray to Allah as everytin will go smoothly...permudahkan la segalanya..
Amin...

hati x senang...

2day mommy kena amik d 3rd dos DECAN yg tujuan nyer utk matangkn paru2 baby...doc inject at d same spot..pedih nyer rasa..tp 4my babies biarla mommy sakit cmner pn kn...mlm td susah betol nk tdo..mimpi yg bukan2 jer..2la kn..ble emosi menguasai diri kn..syaitan pn mula la ganggu..mommy doa biarla mommy yg sakit asal nothing happen 2my baby...
doc tanya..so howwa u? ok? of coz la xok doc...sgt risau kn..thn doc ckp dun worry 2 much,its not good 4d baby plk kn..tp still la xkn la mommy blh suka2 plk kn..pe la doc nih..haishhh...
after d injection mommy dh xdak mood nk p keje...hati pn xsenang kn..abi plk xdpt nk teman p jmpe doc lg la mommy jd sedeyy...thn decide ah p jusco la..hepykn diri sndr, my own way...at 1st i thought just nk p window shopping ler kn...n mkn2 ker..last2 tejebak n habislah a few hundreds..Allahhuakbar..tp xpela kn..yg pntg beli brg2 pn utk my heroes gak...hikhik...
to my babies,
anak2 mommy...mkn same2 yer nak...share yer sayang...mommy n abi sayang sgt kt anak2 mommy n abi ni...xsabar nk tunggu u all come out..mmuuaxxx...

mommy takut...

today as usual mommy n abi p wt monthly check-up kt our private doc..tp kali ni sgt la xbest...semuanya cerita sedehh..n makes mommy risau sgt2!!!2day since morning pn mmg mommy asyik rs xsdp hati..
since dh 30 weeks preggy doc mmg check byk bndala especially for mommy yg carry twins like me kn..as usual doc akan ukur baby n from there dptla estimation brt baby kn..normally my babies nyer weight difference xbyk...just around 100-150gram difference...but at this time suddenly d 1st twin nyer weight dh 300+gram more thn d 2nd twin.doc said this is not good.really2 not good...ya Allah risaunye mommy time tu..in my mind dh start la pk yg bukan2...
b4 this mommy xpenah crite kn tht i'm carrying identicle twin so they r sharing d same womb.so evrytin have 2 be shared..food from mommy n all d nutritions.i did ask d doc is there anytin or any pills i should take?he said tht it's very simple..d only way is to pujuk my twinnies 2 share..talk 2thm evryday...mmg slalu pn mommy talk to my twinnies n insyaAllah i'll try my very best..
ble dh pk mcm2, so a lot of question la yg kluar frm my mouth kn..n as 4me d scarriest question will be "what's d worst can happen??" doc ckp if this continue, i might loose my 2nd twin..ya Allah..rs cm gugur jntung dgr doc ckp cm2..xkn seteruk itu??n he added tht if d 1st twin pn telebih dpt nutrition, it will dangerous 4him too...
Ya Allah..selamatkanlah anak2ku...thn doc kt lg..worst come 2 worst we hv to out d baby early..so babies will be prime babies..thn d doc ask me 2take DECAN injection..this is utk matangkn paru2 baby so tht if dorg kena lahir awal pn paru2 dorg dh ready...kena amik 3doses trus..mlm ni amik 2doses n 2morrow amik another dos...mommy ckp ngn doc, anytin best 4my babies doc..brape byk injections pn mommy xkesah...
d 2doses mmgla skt, rs cm perit sgt ms masuk tu..but mommy kuatkn semangat 4my heroes..
blk rumah tu mommy asyik nanges jer...rs cm xsng ati la sgt..mula la otak ni nk pk yg bukan2...thn abi tenangkn mommy n ajak same2 smbahyang hajat...doa byk2,minta Allah lindungi our heroes...

tdo, tdo, tdo.....

ni la penyakit mommy sepnjang preggy ni..asyik tdo jer....slalu la berhajat nk update blog mommy tp hampehh..hikhik...malas sungguh okay!!!Alhamdulillah now mommy dh 27 weeks preggy..now keje2 umah l'sung la dh xbuat skarang...cian la dkt hubby semua la hubby kena wt..tp mommy tau,my hubbyboo will do anytin 4 d 3 of us kn..thanks abg..sayang abg!
so as usual la p wt check-up cm biase kt my private doc..erm this time cm lame skt kena scan..dgr heartbeat babies...cm so touch dgr their heartbeat..cm xpecaya kt dlm pewott mommy ni ade 2bdk yg sgt cute..theee... :)yg paling best is mommy n abi dh tau our babies nyer gender..doc said tht it's a boy!!!yeay mommy is carrying 2heroes...so there will be 4 heroes in my life...my babah,my hubby and my twinnywinnies!!!heart all u my heroes...muaaxxx...

morning sickness....

erm..morning sickness...alhamdulillah since mommy start preggy till now dh 19weeks xde pn morning sickness yg teruk..i heard n read byk articles about morning sickness n how to overcome it..tp mommy stakat ni hanya rs pening2 skt la...alhamdulillah xpayah nk lalui keadaan yg cm2..sumtimes ble dgr psl org lain cm kesian la sgt2...
nahhh..dh asyik pelik nape xpenah kena morning sickness,yesterday mommy 1st time experienced morning sickness yg melampau..adoiiyai...xblh la nk dscribe keadaan tu..muntah smpai dh xde bnda nk kluar..d worst part is hubby xde same2.cian mommy cm pujukla diri sndiri at tht time..ooohhh sedey!!!but xpela kn...its all for mytwinnywinnies...
my dear babies,
just just want to let u know tht xkshla susah or penat n sakit cmne pn..i'll do anytin 4 u kay my heroes.. sayang anak2 mummy!!

no time...or malas

huh...lame nyer x update my blog..aisshhh...am i being lazy or memang d fact tht time flies so fast?erm..lately ni i'm too adicted to sleep..haha..all i know is sleep,sleep n sleep...sometime cm takut plk nnt my babies will sleep all d time..as wht org slalu ckp wht ever u do, ur baby akan follow...alamak how??mommy suka sgt sleep nih...hehe...
ha but mommy suka read n surf internet time preggy so my twinnywinnies,yg ni ikut ya nak...loads n loads of reading at this time plus sronok tul browsing internet..erm tp bab nk update blog malas la plk..kekeke..cmno la mummy ni ek..citer2 tinggi tu..huhu xpe2 when mommy have d time n mood i'll do it ya son!!

MGTT

after doc confirmed tht i'm carrying twins,mommy kena la wt ujian cek darah nk tgk wether ade diabetis or not...dh la mommy ni jenis yg takot ngn needle!!kenala plk amik darah cm akt la kn..adoiyai...sakit la plk..huhu...tp Alhamdulillah all d proses sng jer..tp yg paling xtahan is kena minum air gula yg sgt la manis nyer itu..huh..just imagine ibarat kena minum cordial without tambahkn air..sgt sweet!!!
most important is d result..so after a week dptla result d MGTT test n Alhamdulillah mommy nyer result ok.doc kt kena jg mkn as i'm over weight plus carrying multiples kn...insyaAllah akan control..(especially if hubby ader...hikhik)

1 + 1 ??

my babies..

can u see there's 2heads?
mommy suka....

2nd scan...i'm carrying multiples!!!
mommy heart u babies...muuahhhss...

masyaAllah...tu jer yg tekeluar from my mouth after our visit to d doc just now...i'm carrying multiples people!!!yeay!!! Alhamdulillah...bertambah-tmbah rezki InsyaAllah...at 1st siap marah2 doc "if xnk check xpayah la nk ckp yg bukan2.." hehehe...mula2 p wt check-up kt doc panel since free kn, wht for nk bazir??thn doc yg wt i geram tu ckp my tummy is thick so it's really hard for thm to scan..plus wth d condition of d machine pn cm xla mengizinkan..hehehe..
so d doc referred me to private clinic where 3D ultrasound is available..erm i pk2 lg bagus cz facilities better kn...
ptg tu jugak me n hubby trus g d clinic n wt d 3D scan..Alhamdulillah..confirm!!! there's 2 lill people in my tummy..byk kali tanya doc "biar betul doc?" hikhik...it's d best news ever i tell u..trus call my ibu n sume pn seronok,2ronok n beronok-ronok...hehehe...what makes this even lg best is 2day is our 1st anny...so kt celebrate la dgn dua bdk chumel dlm pewot mommy ni..best,best,best...

d journey begins...

hepy,hepy,hepy...thts all i can say...as for now, my tugas utama is 2 take care of d lill' thing inside my tummy...as at this 1st trimester d risk of miscarriage is high..plus my fizikal yg comel ni pape pn blh jd...erm risau pn ader..but kena byk2 doa utk yg terbaik 4both mommy n my baby...d good news had spread...both my hubby n my side r very happy n can't wait 2 welcome our new member of d family...n as 4u my lill' baby,we're r gonna enjoy this 9months 2gether dear..mommy heart u baby!!

d beginning...

this is d beginning!!! Alhamdulillah..moment yg pastinya ditunggu from evry couple akhirnya sampai buat kami.."i'm PREGNANT"!!! yeepdeedoo!!! hepy, hepy n sgt lah hepy... actually xla lame sgt we all tunggu.like ade gak org lain yg kena tunggu lg lame kn..but this is what we want since day one kt kahwin..hikhik..tell u d truth guys, memang la xdijangka..i ni kategori big size okay..ramai pn org cakap, susah nk preggy..huhu sedey jer ble dgr org ckp cm2.tp berkat doa n rezeki yg Allah bagi dpt jugak alami pengalaman ni..
at first i thought period lmbat cz since kawen mmg d counting dh xbrape betul..huhu..so wt xtau je la..after 2weeks rs cm ade yg xkena..so i decided to buy d pregnanct test kit..had done it a few times b4 but d result r negative so this time pn i xla mengharap sgt,but at d same time nak,nak,nak...hikhik..did d test ptg time nk mandi.sambil nk tunggu cuci muka dl..thn cm perasan d result cm "positive"..tp lex gak lg continue cuci muka..thn ble tgk betul2...yeay!!! mmg positive!!! Alhamdulillah..d 1st one to know of coz la hubby..hikhik.. suka,suka,suka...
d next day p clinic to double confirm...n doc siap sound lg if mmg dh positive mmg confirm la..erm what eva la doc nk ckp..d most important is we're mommy n daddy 2 be..yeay!!!

d very 1st scan

my 1st scan...hikhik seriusly i tak nmpk ape pn...